Buhay Ko. Buksan Mo.

Done

2008-11-11T10:24:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, we just let go of all the burden.

We just let everything go.

And live this moment like it was your last.

Everything. Is. Good. Again.

Day

2008-11-04T07:07:00.000-08:00

This is Jeric's "MINIMAL-EMO STUFF POST". For the "EXCESSIVELY EMO POST", refer to my last post.

Okay. So, I got that out of my system. Anyways, moving on!

* FS and Blog is updated! Yay. A check for my list!
* Watched a lot of movies this month. Woot. (<- I know that this will be misinterpreted somehow.)
* Songs are in check. Although, I haven't downloaded some yet.
* I'm gonna have to create an account for FF. I know, I know. I'm quite shocked to why I'm joining FF, but I guess this would be a challenge for me.
*Can't wait for Christmas! Looks fun for me! XD
* I really hope that I'll only get my "emo-episodes" once in a blue moon. I mean, I really don't like to be emo anymore. 0_0
* Got a new bed! Well, not exactly a bed. Hmm... How would I term this thing I'm on... It's on the floor. It's not big. It's kinda small. It's like a sleeping bag, but a little more comfier and not a bag. Definitely not a sofabed, too. Errr. Oh well.
* Journ project = Photojourn = Camera Time! I wonder what theme for the pictures I would use. Any suggestions for the theme of the pictures I'm gonna take? (ie. Love, Poverty, Flight, etc.) Tag me in the chatbox.

Days are becoming quite a regular old cycle for me. Nothing exciting in life. Except of course for my occassional emo-episodes.

"Life is a boring movie. You act like you're really enjoying it, but actually, you can't wait for it to end."
- Celine, "After Eden"

I love this line. :)

We had a short discussion on KFC on random stuff. One of which was Perfection. The perfect family, the perfect person, the perfect life. Then, this line just popped up. And I love it. :)

"Kasi naman ang "PERFECT" sa mga score lang iyan inaassociate eh!"
-Celiz Embuscado, classmate

And to be honest, she does have a point. We all agreed on it and that concluded our debate on the perfect life. :)

See you all next time. I'll try to write soon.

Oh. And I really do need your opinions on the theme. I actually need three themes, so any suggestions would be welcome. X)

Ciao.

-Jeric

People

2008-11-04T06:34:00.000-08:00

PEOPLE - what a word.

Okay. I'll admit it. I really tried to be a super friendly person this year. I mean, new people to meet this year. Great! I really did. I wanted to be close to a lot of people. But then...

Be careful what you wish for because you just might get it.

Iyan po ay isang linya mula sa "When I Grow Up" ng Pussycat Dolls. I mean, wow Jeric! Great job quoting from a song of PCD that is TOTALLY EMO! I mean, no dancing whatsoever in the music video!

Anyways, enough sarcasm. Here it is. I really wished nung 3rd year na maging dettached (<-OMG. How many times will I have to say this frickin' word! I? am so fed up with this word! Grrr. ) from people. The ability to actually live with close people not around you. The capability to not open up much and not care too much about relationships. I think I'm actually doing it.

The great thing about this is that you don't really have to open up too much to anyone close anymore. Don't really care if people dislike you. I mean, who cares now? Not me, for one. Well, to be honest, I'll say my opinion every once in a while when I'm very frustrated, but as of the past weeks, hell no.

Man is weak. Man is very weak.

One thing I have noticed is that people nowadays rely too much with "The Flow".
People don't do anything anymore. They just go with the flow. Actually, I think I'm starting to see the worst part of people nowadays. And I tell you, it's not good.

You know the feeling that you despise them, and yet... nothing. You can't do anything. Play along with the friend game. You can't afford to have people to talk behind your back when you actually say something that can defame them. I mean, people go with the usual: "As if you're perfect to tell us our shortcomings! (insert other crap here, insert other crap there)"

How pathetic people are now right now. But then, who am I to say it?

It's kinda hard living the double life. Playing along with the masquerade to make sure no one catches a good glimpse of your face. It's hard to find people who don't stab you in the back these days.

I'm contradicting myself, I can see. I say I'm dettached, yet here I am searching for the "true friend" crap I always blabber about. Oh well.

At the end of all that I have said, I kinda wonder. Who actually cares for all the crap I just said? Will the person be reading this post be actually giving a damn for my sake? A damn for my opinion on life or whatsoever?

Or just be like the rest of humanity. Only caring for themselves. Their own interests. Their own entertainment. Their own sanity.

-Jeric

P.S.
Don't mess with me. Please. You know who you are.

START.

2008-07-29T09:05:00.000-07:00

Okay. Let us start from scratch. So my last year in MaSci has started and I'm proud to wear that blue I.D.! Woot. at last, 4th year na ako! (I never thought the day would come.)

Medyo naninibago ako ulit dito sa Einstein. Some of the new people here, xempre iba yung kanilang personalities so talagang maninibago ako. Pero that was actually alright. What I was surprised about was the sudden change in some of my former classmates. As in... WOW. Kayo ba yan? (Wala nang vanity, GC levels upgraded to the nth level, wala nang cute na bola na tinatawag na JAEL.)

Anyways. Haaay. I don't know what to say in this post. Kasi siguro ayoko itong mabasa ng iba pang tao. Parang masaya lang kasing magsulat ng magsulat dito sa blog.

I already know that people are talking behind my back. Freaky? Yes. Well, siguro para sa akin. And I know who the cunning little weasels/cats are! >.< Medyo masakit kasi pinapakita mo na nga sa kanila na hindi ka ganoong klaseng tao, pero wala pa rin. Tuloy pa rin ang black propaganda nila. I guess ganun na talaga ang impression nila sa akin, so oh well. I'm tired on giving them a good impression so bahala na.

Haaaay. I'm gonna be honest. I really don't want to be part of Einstein. Really. Nothing personal. Just that almost pareho rin siya sa Burbank. Parang Noli Me Tangere at El Filibusterismo. Same friends, with an added bonus of other people. Same personalities. Same issues. Same characters. SAME PROBLEMS.

Ano nga ba ang mga problema na hinaharap ng pangkat na ito? Hahaha. Find out yourself. :X

Trust.

2007-12-13T06:22:00.000-08:00

Friendship.

It's all about trust, right?

...

Right now... I don't know anymore.

I hate it...

WHEN PEOPLE LABEL ME AS THE NOISY GAY GUY.

Sure whatever. I can brush that off. But it hurts when people don't say stuff to you while you're pouring your secrets to them just because they think you will spill it to other people.

Nakakainis na. Napupuno na ako.

It doesn't mean na maingay ako sa klase ay di na ako makapagtitiwalaan! EPAL!

GAAAAHHHH.

Ayan na. Lumabas na rin. Well. That's that. Sawang-sawa na ako sa ginagawa niyo sa akin.

@!*&%$~

As of December 13, 2007...

Bahala na kayo. Magsama-sama kayo.

If you won't trust me, then I won't trust you.

Mata sa mata. Ngipin sa ngipin.

November 9, 2007. Best day of my life.

2007-11-10T01:06:00.000-08:00

November 9, 2007. Best day of my life.

I really thought it was gonna be one of those usual crappy days.
But it wasn't.

It started in Math. Hahaha. Flag this, it's a clue~!
Anyways, the day just got better and better.

I also got a keychain from Miguel, shaped like a broom.

Together with my sidekick Detective K, napuntahan ko ang Linnae and yes. Andun si L. >o<

I accidentally told my mom that I'll be dismissed at around 5:30. So... yay.
It was raining hard and I got wet. Fantastic~(Yeah. I know. That sounded so...)

Detective K, Aiza and the other service crew were with me and we ate Tempura. Kulit ko kasi sa Tempura. ^^;;

After that, they styled my hair. Yep, and I looked like a geek or as they called it a member of The Three Stooges.

Anyways, something happened at natutuwa talaga ako.
I really loved it. Naaliw ako. I heart L. =^.^=

Everybody left shortly. It was a good thing na andun pa yung tatlo. By that, I mean...

Bibs.
Ron.
and Lendl.

Woot~

I got to chat around with fellow friends.

Sweet nga nung dalawa (Bibs and Ron). Hinintay pa nila ako. >.<
Lendl, coinidentally, will also be leaving at around 5.

Talked and talked hanggang sinundo na kami ni Lendl, since sabay si Bibs at si Ron. So ayun. End of the day. ^.^ (Let's ignore the fact na naiwan ko kay Detective K yung aking cel. ^^;;)

Weeee~ L. Sino kaya ang makakahula kung sino ikaw? Whoever does gets a cookie and a bullet to the heart.

P.S.

Before I forget, I would to say sorry to Bibs because of the "Issue". It's mostly my fault for the spread of the... well you know. :P

P.S.S.

Jael, sorry about what happened with your father... I feel guilty about that. To the rest, there is no more bloggie. (You know, Bloggie. The Bloggie.)

P.S.S.S.

Upon returning home, I realized that I now look like this.

Hearts,
Jeric

Avatars Ala Mode

2007-11-04T04:59:00.000-08:00

Hello again. Guess who? >.<

Today's my official cramming day. Hahaha. GC~

Yesterday however, was one of the best days I had.

I got to clear up some things in my mind and...

I've decided! There can only be one L.

Yes, I know. I swear I had my fingers crossed~ :P

Although, I don't want to focus on L first. I just want to make things clear.

I got to focus on stuff that's really important.

Moving on, I had a fun night with the "perpetrators" last night.

Burp!, -Dash, Ordinary and d-Bot was there. Too bad for Toot-Toot and Orgasm. XD

It was great really. We made avatars and chatted on improving THE blog.

By the way, I'm endorsing you to go to THE blog. You know the beloved URL. :P

I heart the avatars of Toot-Toot and Orgasm. Do you think it's a good idea to have a contest on making the best avatar of the two? :P

I just wanted to share this with you.

"The best way to make it through
With hearts and wrists in tact
Is to realize two out of three ain’t bad"~

Cookies and hearts for the person to guess correctly the name of the song~! XD

REC.

2007-11-02T07:39:00.000-07:00

REC!

Yup. This will be my first non-emo post~!

Hahaha. The last post will hopefully be the last emo post.

Anyway, here it is~!

REC is (an anime if you don't know) great, even if the whole series has only 9 episodes. T_T

Ganda. Pwamis. Short and sweet. ^__^

I recommend that you watch it~

Go Nekoki~!

Hahaha. Moving on...

To all those who tagged, me hearts you.

I'll try not to think about... you know. For now.

Hahaha.

Sige. Yun lang.

Ciao.

~

Thanks... and Goodbye.

2007-11-01T07:13:00.000-07:00

Wow. To all those that commented, I say thank you.

I really appreciate the concern.

I'm sorry kung over-emo na itong blog. I'll try to keep it to a simple journal as much as possible from now on. I don't want to ruin your day.

Kasi naman...

Ang hirap...

Mahirap...

Mahirap tingnan na masaya yung minamahal mo sa iba.

Mahirap...

Mahirap sabihin sa kanya kung alam mong sa iba siya nakatingin...

Mahirap...

Mahirap dahil alam mong hindi niya kayang ibalik ang iyong pagmamahal.

:'(

Kaya...

Siguro...

Bibitawan ko na muna...

I guess this will be goodbye for now.

I wanna focus on something else... And I can't waste anymore time...

Paalam. At patawad.

L.

~

"I keep wearing these masks so people won't notice. Just once, I'll try to take it off."

Two Hearts?

2007-10-30T09:15:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking. This midnight. And I have decided to put this up on my blog.

Was it possible to love two people at the same time?

I don't know why... But...

I think I like another L too! Damn!

So there's L... and another L?

DAMN!

Don't worry. You can tell them apart by the colors. My first L will be blue. My second(?) will be yellow. Damn. I really didn't want to do this...

The strange thing is... They're opposites. This will make people say D'oh! once they find out though. XD

So... what should I do?

I need some help now.

I wanna hear some good advice. Please?

How come I'm always emotionally unstable!?

Hahaha. Too tired too be E~M~O.

Anyways, good luck to all of ya out there. The end of the Sem has come. Grr.

I can't say I love you L right now.

There's two of you!

So...

Maybe...

I'll leave it with this.

I Love the Letter L~!

Woot~!

Havana Nights?

2007-10-27T20:22:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking last night about stuff. And I think I've been asking everyone I know about it. These are some questions that ALWAYS stay in my mind.

1. Is there an afterlife?
2. Will L love me back?
3. Do I really have a shot at love?
4. What happens to my future?
5. What happens in college?
6. Is there really a divine presence somewhere?
7. Is homosexuality really a choice or fate? (Yup. Curious about that.)
8. If there is no afterlife, what happens to me?

Sigh. I'm really confused right now. But... I really don't want to think about future. I just want to live in this world, right now.

Aside from that, I think L already knows about it. Sigh. I'm going to be frank.

Ayokong maulit yung nangyari sa amin ni Karen.

I really don't! Imagine... 3 years and we only talked once! And that was for a report. Damn.

Sigh. Having a headache. Leave a tag and I will love you.

~L. I really do hope... you can love me back. :'(

The REAL First Post.

2007-10-17T04:13:00.000-07:00

Damn it. I don't want to lie anymore. No more stories. I'll be using this blog as the real thing. At last.

Look forward to my emotionally unstable posts.

'Til then.

This will be the end, but it will also be a new beginning.

I heart you L.